可这个礼拜发生的一件事却让我看到了希望。一天下午，叔叔出去办事了。于是我对自己说 “现在可以释放了”。可下一秒，我却有意识地，又有点自然地选择了 “不，我愿意想别人的好”。我笑了，觉得周围的场很祥和，很舒服。终于，好的思维方式开始成为我的一部分了。现在再改正也不觉得像之前那么吃力了。而且，叔叔还告诉了我们抑制的方法，那就是想到“发给别人的一切最终都会回到自己的身上”。这样想，改正起来就容易多了。希望我可以很快变好，变得阳光，正面，积极。
I'm currently reading a novel called "Dr. Incarnate". It's about a respected Dr. Jekyll who, in order to free his long-covered evil self, invented a potion that can transform into Mr. Hyde at any time to indulge in another identity. The "dual personality" described in the novel is very in line with me some time ago. Uncle reminded me to pay attention to my thoughts and suppress bad thoughts, so I tried very hard to suppress the complaints in my mind. On the one hand, I know that uncle is for my good; on the other hand, I feel like I'm going crazy with restraint, and I really want to become another me and release it.
But something happened this week that gave me hope. One afternoon, uncle went out to run errands. So I said to myself "now it's time to release". But in the next second, I consciously and somewhat naturally chose "No, I would like to think of others' well-being". I laughed and felt that the surrounding field was peaceful and comfortable. Finally, good thinking started to become a part of me. Correcting it now doesn't feel as difficult as it used to be. Moreover, uncle also told us the method of restraint, which is to think that "everything you send to others will eventually come back to you". Thinking about it this way, it's much easier to correct. Hope I can get better soon, be sunny, positive, positive.
I have always had a very deep-rooted problem, that is, I look down on everything. Look down on people, look down on rules, look down on delicious and fun. It turned out that I was cleaned up by the teacher, largely because I looked down on the teacher's school and utilitarian attitude. It's a habit to look down on people.
This week, however, I deeply felt the pain of looking down on rules without rules. The impact of the fairness of the rules on mental health cannot be underestimated. So, I decided to get rid of the "look down on people" problem, and I don't want to cause discomfort to others like before.