还记得在家里时，手机就像毒瘾一样，每时每刻牵动着我的神经。只要手机一会儿不在身边，我就无所事事，不知道该干什么。只要逮到一点空，没有任何目的性的也要看一看手机，哪怕只是手机壁纸。为了得到手机，每天和家长“斗智斗勇”。撒谎，借着上网课的借口乘机玩手机；该睡觉的时候熬夜玩；上厕所的时候也玩。写作业的时候，效率极低。手机在旁边无时无刻的散发着诱惑，看似平平静静地躺在那里，却似喧闹着：“来玩我呀，来呀来呀”。弄的人心里痒痒的，总想将它拿起摆弄一番。而我确实也是这么做的，于是每个假期结束的时候，开学前一晚、上学的路上，也就是疯狂的补作业的时候。与此同时，学习成绩自然也是止步不前。因为手机而和家长引发的矛盾更是数不胜数。现在想想，每次矛盾好像都是因为手机……品质、健康、自制力、专注力…现在想想都觉得恐怖。
但是最近我发现，不知不觉中读书已经逐渐取代了我对于手机的欲望。经常看到书架上有那么多好书，每本都想看一看，于是就感觉自己的时间不够用。虽然以前也读过一些书，但大多数为言情小说，这种没有意义的内容经常连续看几个小时也不解渴。但是一些有意义的外国文学著作，例如《杀死一只知更鸟》，记得自从买到手，它就被放在那里睡大觉。直到开始阅读时，我花了一个暑假才将这一本书读完。只记得那时眼睛机械的运动着，划过一个又一个字，脑子也不知道在想什么，等意识过来后完全不清楚看了什么。至于内容，当然也没有读进心里。一本书看完了也不明白为什么杀死一只知更鸟是有罪的。
从刚开始阅读金庸小说《神雕侠侣》开始，慢慢我发现书里有手机无法带来的快乐与充实感。书中精彩动人的描写，将我带入那个时代、仿佛置身其间。慢慢的我也会思考书中的内容，不再只是简单的阅读故事。从《神雕侠侣》中，郭靖对杨过所说的一席话：“行侠仗义、济人困厄固然乃是本分，但这只是侠之小者。江湖上所以尊称我一声郭大侠，实因敬我为国为民、奋不顾身的助守襄阳……”，再到《明朝那些事儿》中杨继盛死劾严嵩的那种“明知不可为而为之”的无畏，都使我深受震撼。历代将相名臣，为了惩奸除恶、人民疾苦所作出的努力，让我深感学习的目的不是为了名，更不是为了利，而是在更有能力为人民解除疾苦。
每每想到这里，我都有一种难以言表的庆幸。现在想来，如果一直按照以前的那种生活方式继续下去，沉迷于手机网络，一辈子也学不会读书思考。固步自封于自己那点现有知识，还自负的不行。而现在我所要做的就是向那些书中正直不屈的人学习，努力改善自己的品行，提高自己的能力，走向更光明的道路。
I still remember when I was at home, the mobile phone was like a drug addiction, pulling my nerves every moment. As long as the phone is not with me for a while, I have nothing to do and don't know what to do. Just take a look at your phone if you have some free time, even if it’s just the wallpaper. In order to get a mobile phone, I "fight wits and courage" with my parents every day. Lie, use the excuse of online classes to take the opportunity to play with mobile phones; stay up late to play when it is time to sleep; play when going to the toilet. When writing homework, the efficiency is extremely low. The mobile phone next to it exudes temptation all the time. It seems to be lying there peacefully, but it seems to be noisy: "Come and play with me, come and come". Those who make it feel itchy in their hearts, always wanting to pick it up and play with it. And I do do the same, so at the end of each holiday, the night before school starts, and on the way to school, it is also the time to make up homework crazily. At the same time, academic performance has naturally stagnated. There are countless conflicts with parents caused by mobile phones. Thinking about it now, every conflict seems to be because of the mobile phone... Quality, health, self-control, concentration... It's scary to think about it now.
But recently I found that reading has gradually replaced my desire for mobile phones without knowing it. I often see so many good books on the bookshelf, and I want to read each one, so I feel that I don't have enough time. Although I have read some books before, most of them are romance novels. I often read such meaningless content for hours without quenching my thirst. But some meaningful foreign literary works, such as "To Kill a Mockingbird", I remember that since I bought it, it has been put there to sleep. It took me a summer vacation to finish reading this book until I started reading it. I just remember that my eyes were moving mechanically at that time, and one word after another was drawn, and I didn't know what I was thinking. After I came to my consciousness, I didn't know what I saw. As for the content, of course I didn't read it into my heart. Read a book without knowing why it is a sin to kill a mockingbird.
From the beginning of reading Jin Yong's novel "The Legend of Condor Heroes", I gradually discovered that there is a sense of happiness and fulfillment in the book that mobile phones cannot bring. The wonderful and moving descriptions in the book brought me into that era, as if I was in it. Slowly, I will also think about the content in the book, no longer just simply reading the story. From "The Legend of Condor Heroes", Guo Jing said to Yang Guo: "It is the duty of a chivalrous man to fight for righteousness and help others in need, but this is just a small man of chivalry. The reason why people in the world call me Guo Daxia is because of respect." For the sake of the country and the people, I helped defend Xiangyang regardless of my own safety..." I was deeply shocked by the fearlessness of Yang Jisheng's death and impeachment of Yan Song in "Those Things in the Ming Dynasty". The efforts made by the generals and ministers of the past dynasties to punish rape and eliminate evil and the suffering of the people made me deeply feel that the purpose of learning is not for fame, let alone profit, but to be more capable of relieving the suffering of the people.
Every time I think of this, I feel an indescribable sense of joy. Thinking about it now, if I continue to follow the old way of life, addicted to the mobile phone network, I will never learn to read and think in my life. It's not good to be conceited if you stick to your own existing knowledge. And now all I have to do is to learn from those who are upright and unyielding in the book, and strive to improve my character, improve my ability, and move towards a brighter path.
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